Random thoughts...

As life becomes more and more complex, I see God putting all the pieces together for me and realize more and more that I need to give him total control of my life and have a hard time doing so...I am a person who likes everything to be in order and a lot of times to do things my way, but God keeps tugging at me to let me know that I need him and can't live my life without him...(pray for me!)

~On a different note, school is getting really busy and time consuming and at the same time Johnathon is getting bigger and bigger and becoming more independent :( Today at church he would rather play than just lay in my arms sitting in the service and have come to the conclusion that it is now time to put him in the nursery..AH! I am not ready for that, but as Dave pointed out to me "it's not about you" I know I know, but being a new parent is so much harder to let go of these kind of things...I just have to laugh at myself and try. Johnathon will be 5 months on Saturday and time sure does fly! I look back at these last 5 months and think back to all the wonderful times I've had with him and think about how fast he is growing up! Wow...time to have another one huh?!? It seemed like I was pregnant forever and now that he is here it seems like time is not slowing down at all...I can't wait for Shaundra, Sarah, and Austin to be home to see how much he's changed and to see all the new things that he can do. I miss them sooo much and look forward to spending time with them :)
It's getting pretty late and think I should turn in, but just wanted to get some of my thoughts out.

Another prayer request: I have my first official lesson plan observation on Wednesday and want everything to go well...this is huge in that I have full control of the class and I will be watched and this person will tell me if he thinks if I'll make a good teacher or not...kinda nerve racking!